Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Coincidence or Fate

It's funny how life works some days.  Back in January 2012 I started this blog as a way of documenting what I've started to learn about myself since my marriage ended.  My husband at the time moved out in November 2011, and with the new year I wanted to document all the old and new things I'd be rediscovering and learning about myself along the way.  If you look back, I did pretty good up until February of that year, but then life got in the way.  I'd started to learn exactly how hard it was/is to be s 40-something year old single mom (who just so happens to have Multiple Sclerosis for over a decade now)  to a young son.  For the record, I will be 43 this coming March, my son will be 4 1/2, and July will mark 12 years since my MS diagnosis..  Yes, I admit my age, and am damn proud of it, too!!!!  Doesn't hurt that I've been told many times that I look much younger than my age!!! :-D

So this brings me to the title for this post.  Just so turns out that my last blog post was on February 12, 2012, and today is now February 12, 2013.   This WAS NOT planned AT ALL.  My laptop screen crapped out on me in Novembe 2012, and it was only now that I was able to buy myself a brand spanking-new laptop.  I ordered it at one Best Buy in Jersey yesterday while out with my son and parents, but they didn't have it in stock.  However, the Best Buy closer to me had it, so I was able to pick it up today...February 12th.  I'd been itching like crazy to start blogging again, so I knew I just HAD TO do a reintroduction post tonight.  That's when I realized it'd been exactly one year since that last post.

With that, I ask you, was this just a mere coincidence or was it fate?  I'll let you decide for yourself, but I know in my heart what I believe it is....

I've learned a great deal about myself this past year, and I'm sure you'll be reading about these discoveries in the coming posts in the days, weeks, and months ahead.  One thing I can confidently and whole-heartedly share with you is that I'm FINALLY at a complete, inner peace with myself and my life.  I can't explain it, but it is an indescribably serene feeling within.  By not means is my life perfect; and, yes, there were and are those crazy, stressed-out days/situations, but at the heart of me, I'm still at peace.  When something happens and I get in the WTF kind of mind set; I just step back, look at the situation, and ask myself "Will this really matter 5 years from now?"  I'd say 95% of the time, the answer was and is "No."  When it was "Yes," it had to deal with parenting problems with my son's father, and the repercussions of bad decisions that could potentially affect my son emotionally and last for years in the long run.  Then the "Momma Bear" comes out in me and she shows her claws.  No doubt about that one!!!

With all this, I'd like to say a sincere thank you for reading this post.  As I have no photos downloaded yet onto this system, I don't have much I can add to this post to make it look pretty or to show newer, more up-to-date photos of me and EJ.  Although if you're "Friends" with me on FaceBook, you definitely see our mugs all the time :-).  But, I'll definitely be spending time this weekend getting my system in a more working order.  Doesn't help that I'm also trying to figure out this new Windows 8 system.  Techie I am not, so this may take a while - LOL!!!  So if any of you have suggestions/advice/tips on the new system, please feel free to share!!

And on that note, I wish you...

Peace, Love, and Happiness :-)

Kristyn

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    1. Indeed I am :-) Just as you're leaving, too. :-( I hope to see you and your blogs back up and running as soon as you're ready to restart them. :-)

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